uniworlds

My head has had so
much
pressure
so much pressure
My chest is caving in like I can't breath
(but that might just be the mcdonalds speaking)
I am starting to worry
wonder
I am scared to think
was I groomed?
"your a whole dime ..
butt is so fat..
"
no.
God.
Why -- am I even thinking this.
Can't even talk to him --
only -- anger
frustration,
but I am worried
want to speak with you without hesistation
Please remind me how we were in this together
I am on my period now I feel better knowing that

I was wondering why my emotions were all over the place
feeling so hateful
phew
thank you uniworld

I stretch myself out for people with nothing in return
I'm waiting for this fire to go out
when will I
be ok

But

My eyes are darker than the inside of my mind
I can't even imagine.
I always tell people I write, but I really don't.
I just jibber jabber my thoughts and the end result is usually twisted and sloppy
But I am still a writer.
Something consisitent about me,
which is a rare thing with me

consistent positibe attribute? No way
I'm tired of working at the club.
Everyone's bitching
Everyones's complaining
because business is up
but the funds are down
and it's annoying and we feel used and tired
I can speak for us all

I can't count how many times I heard
"I didn't even make 100 dollars tonight"
*gets tipped on stage*
"yay now I have 22 dollars"
I'm walking out with 200,
I might as well be a waitress.
Not at the club though.
They are leaving with close-to nothing, it's so sad to see.

Cuticles peeling
calloused hands
my feet smell terrible
my eyes are darker then his soul
and my sons hitting is getting worse

but I woke up today

Emotional Credit

Last night I put another charge on my card


But it was worth it

I Get It

I get it.
I would pay.

I could go to the club,
and pay to sit with a beautiful women
that pretended to care about me
and spill out my shit
and let her hold me
while I sobbed in the VIP

because I know she would be all about the money
and it would be a easy night

and I could feel comfort

what a business

So

Please help me

Last Night

"I didn't even get an ansaaa, I tried to call..."

Damn.

Last night was terrible.
No one ever wants to listen to me.

We have known eachother since we were kids we ALL know who is going to FUCK UP THE NIGHT if we FOLLOW THEIR LEAD.

But no.

No one wants to listen to me when I say "Are you sure?"

Anyways - We didn't even get into the club A.
& B the second club we went to was W A C K

and C everyone look like they just turned 18, the swag of the niggas is so child like I can't handle it.

It's time to work my connections to get into a damn cocktail lounge, let me pull these strings......

The next move will be my move and it will be on point.

It was so good to get around people though. The city has beautiful women so I got my game on fo' shoooo and it was just refreshing.

Was good seeing the ladies and yelling at niggas in cars, screaming numbers out the window. Aye.

Felt like I was 19 again..

oh wait...............